Pieces of My Mind

okay blog

2010-01-28T20:28:00.001-08:00

sorry but I am over you, I got a new blog

jbabka.tumblr.com

Oh my

2010-01-18T17:14:00.000-08:00

Check out this bed! holy crap!

Listen

2010-01-05T19:30:00.000-08:00

4 more days

2009-12-24T12:34:00.001-08:00

From A Distance

2009-12-23T02:09:00.001-08:00

Is it possible that one can believe that He is alive and within but not desire Him, oh wretched soul, what have I become?

I think I am missing the whole point, I just wish I could figure out what the point was

Ya, I am not excited or anything

2009-12-07T16:48:00.000-08:00

done with my first fall quarter, it is now christmas break, and I will never have to deal with being a stupid history major again! muwahahahahahaaa!

Mountains

2009-11-25T22:27:00.000-08:00

I want to live in a tiny little cabin in the mountains and teach little children how to sing, it is very sound of music esque isn't it?

Autumn

2009-11-11T19:03:00.000-08:00

So,

2009-11-01T20:57:00.000-08:00

I want to learn to

yodel

scat

play jazz piano really well

guitar

harmonica

banjo

and violin

I want to learn to

sew

bake

crochet (better than I can)

embroider

and paint

But most of all I want to learn to

love

cry

laugh...like really laugh

be content

be more like Jesus

be holy, set apart for my God

I have been thinking about simplicity a lot, things have become so complicated, Just love God and love thy neighbor as you love thy self.

I miss this

2009-10-30T11:10:00.001-07:00

Avett Lyrics

2009-10-26T23:04:00.000-07:00

"The weight of lies will bring you down
And follow you to every town
Cause nothing happens here that doesn’t happen there
So when you run make sure you run
To something and not away from
Cause lies don’t need an aeroplane to chase you anywhere"

-The weight of lies

"There’s a darkness upon me that’s flooded in light
In the fine print they tell me what’s wrong and what’s right
And it comes in black and it comes in white
And I’m frightened by those that don’t see it

When nothing is owed or deserved or expected
And your life doesn’t change by the man that’s elected
If you’re loved by someone, you’re never rejected
Decide what to be and go be it

There was a dream and one day I could see it
Like a bird in a cage I broke in and demanded that somebody free it
And there was a kid with a head full of doubt
So I’ll scream til I die and the last of those bad thoughts are finally out"

-Head full of doubt/ Road full of promise

2 Months...

2009-10-25T17:23:00.000-07:00

Coats, snow, Christmas, jazz music...and of course New York City :)

Life Lately...

2009-10-19T18:42:00.001-07:00

So life lately...

I have realized how small this world is in a sense of social webs. Like every person I meet at poly knows someone I know who knows someone else that I know, its crazy...and I love it.

I also had a bit of a crisis/breakdown/i don't know what to do with myself moment last week (well it is more like momentS) I just didn't feel like I was where God wanted me to be and wow that is the worst feeling in the world. I was one freak out away from dropping out and being in a traveling band. Life seemed like it was so meaningless because I wasn't in God's will but I have learned so much from this...So yes I am now in the process of changing my major from history to music and I already feel at home. The music building is so comfortable and welcoming, my choir director is awesome, and I have met some amazing music majors! I knew after Costa Rica what I needed to do, no, more like I knew a year ago what I was supposed to do but I just didn't because I was scared, intimidated; I was believing the lies of satan. There is so much peace in my life right now, I may not know what I am going to do with music later, but right now I know I am where I am supposed to be and I am so thankful for God's guidance.

Also, last week I wanted to transfer because I was so lonely and hadn't made any real connections yet and I was getting really depressed, but then God showered me with blessings this weekend. I met so many amazing people from Crusade this week who truly love God and want to follow him with everything they have. Now I just want to smile all the time!

So a week ago I was freaking out about a midterm, crying over not having any friends, and hating my major. Now I have met so many amazing people, got a good grade on my midterm, and know exactly where the Lord wants me to be. Why do I doubt you Father?

"O lord you're beautiful, your face is all I see, and when your eyes are on this child,your grace abounds to me. I want to take your word and shine it all around, first help me just to live it Lord. And when I'm well, help me to never seek a crown, for my reward is bringing glory to You." -Keith Green

Road Trip

2009-10-12T22:28:00.000-07:00

First things first...a car is needed. I want a crappy old volvo station wagon so bad, preferably blue but any color will do at this point.

Ah, how wonderful the open road should be, a soft breeze and good music, plus the company of good friends gazing at the Lord's creation together
I want to go to Oregon, real bad

Also, I have been a California resident for 18.5 years and I have never been to yosemite, it is just absurd... so ya, that must happen!
I just want to explore the world so badly right now

Bright Star

2009-10-12T12:18:00.000-07:00

This movie was so beautiful, such good cinematography and acting. Now I want to go live in the countryside and pick flowers all day.

Pumpkin Time

2009-10-11T12:11:00.001-07:00

I went to the pumpkin patch yesterday, I nearly cried with joy it was so amazing!

Because You asked me to...

2009-10-08T23:03:00.000-07:00

I went up to the mountain

Because you asked me to

Up over the clouds

To where the sky was blue

I could see all around me

Everywhere

I could see all around me

Everywhere

Sometimes I feel like

I've never been nothing but tired

And I'll be walking

Till the day I expire

Sometimes I lay down

No more can I do

But then I go on again

Because you ask me to

Some days I look down

Afraid I will fall

And though the sun shines

I see nothing at all

Then I hear your sweet voice, oh

Oh, come and then go, come and then go

Telling me softly

You love me so

The peaceful valley

Just over the mountain

The peaceful valley

Few come to know

I may never get there

Ever in this lifetime

But sooner or later

It's there I will go

Sooner or later

It's there I will go

-Up The Mountain (Martin Luther King Tribute, Patty Griffin)

This song is so beautiful, to whoever reads this, God loves you so much, he weeps on your behalf, he cries out to you, he stretches out his hand, he even came and died so that you may know him. Come on world,

What are you doing with your life?

My Dorm

2009-09-27T14:11:00.000-07:00

Frank is a vital part of my college experience!
antique mirror, it was my grandmas
desk & bulletin board
"clothesline" picture set-up. This is one of my favorite parts of the room
the nightstand
Bed, quilt from urban outfitters

this wall if my favorite, I worked very hard on it, painting frames and creating goodness out of paper. My favorite thing on the wall is the chalkboard I made that says HOPE.

Just Thinking...

2009-09-19T12:48:00.000-07:00

Thinking of last September and how everything in my life seemed so simple and beautiful. It was a good month, it was before everything got screwed up, it was a beautiful and innocent time in my life when I was obsessed with Patty Griffin and jazz music and when my mom and I would bake together. Now I sit in my dorm wanting to go back in time so badly, wanting to be in the kitchen with my mom listening to Patty Griffin and baking together, to have Clayton here again, to have my friends all be at home still. I want to go to a football game and then go hang out at Emily's house again like we did every friday night last fall and I miss show choir because it gave me an excuse to sing Christmas music in the fall. I miss being around people who get me, who understand my nerdiness, who love Christ with all their hearts, souls, and minds, who love me just the way I am, and who build each other up in love.

I have come to realize that college is not all that its cracked up to be, I am over trying to make "friendships" so I won't be alone on a friday night and I can have someone to take a picture with, and I am tired of everyone trying to be too cool for life, and you know what I am sick and tired of hearing the f word every second of the day!

I have learned that the world hates Christians, like they don't want anything to do with them. You see, I knew this by reading it but I have never experienced so much hate toward the Lord in my life until this week. They hate Christ and his followers, but yet they are still trying to fulfill that emptiness with a bunch of crap that doesn't fulfill them at all, they are still looking for a saviour, but they hate the only one who can save them. We are so broken, We are so lost, We are the problem.

" 'What you are really saying is that we have a sin nature, like the Fundamentalist Christians say.'

Tony took the pipe from his lips. 'Pretty much Don. It just explain a lot, you know.' "

-Blue Like Jazz

Christ is my only hope, He will give me strength and courage as I walk through the valley of shadow and death. Guide me Lord, show me how to love like you, give me your eyes to see the world how you see the world. Send your spirit like fire to your church, open our eyes to the brokenness around us, humiliate us Lord, bring us to our knees. Mold us, shape us, put us through the fire, no matter what it takes to become more and more like You.

Things are different now, but I must keep pressing on toward Christ.

The Opposite Way

2009-09-18T11:40:00.001-07:00

Moving out...

2009-09-11T21:36:00.001-07:00

I am moving out tomorrow to SLO.

I don't want to but then I really want to at the same time.

I mean this is the view from my dorm/apartment...

can't really go wrong with that right??

I should keep a tally of how many times I get asked "where are you from, whats your major?"

I heard no I told you so's

2009-09-04T01:36:00.000-07:00

When I got tired of running from you

I stopped right there to catch my breath

There your words they caught my ears

You said, "I miss you son. Come home"

And my sins, they watched me leave

And in my heart I so believed

The love you felt for me was more than

The love I'd wished for all this time

And when the doors were closed

I heard no I told so's

I said the words I knew you knew

Oh God, Oh God I needed you

God all this time I needed you, I needed you

And I so hate consequences

And running from you is what my best defense is

I hate these consequences

Because I know that I let you down

Now I don't wanna deal with that

Daily Inspiration...

2009-09-02T10:52:00.000-07:00

this last picture has a story behind it... read about it here.

Fall Wish List

2009-08-31T23:56:00.000-07:00

Lets pretend for one moment...

Toms Shoes

Sweaters :)

Pretty Headbands (I kind of want to make my own though)
Pencil Skirts (with tights and boots...*sigh*)
Fake Glasses, hey I am a college student now, I have to look studious
Over the shoulder bag
V-Neck
Boots...
This dress, right here, is beautiful, it is like a work of art, and it is also super expensive (at least for an 18 year old with pretty much no income) The name of the dress just makes it 50 times better too...the Chai Latte dress,
So excited for fall clothes and weather, it has been way too hot lately

Three Things.

2009-08-30T19:19:00.000-07:00

The Avett Brothers...

Pretty Wedding Pictures

Pretty...

Autumn Please

2009-08-26T15:38:00.000-07:00

Yes, you heard me, can it please be fall already!!? I have many reasons why I want it to be fall...

-Autumn is my favorite season, even though we don't have the best fall here in CA but there is just something about the weather getting colder, the trees changing color, and just knowing that holiday season is coming soon makes me smile! In fact, I love autumn so much that if I have a daughter I want to name her Autumn.

-When its Autumn I will be moved out and college will start!

-I get to wear skirts with leggings and boots, wear coats, gloves, and scarves again

- Hot drinks!!! Chais, Mochas, Hot Chocolate

-Sweaters...

-Halloween and pumpkin pie

-being able to curl up in a blanket with some chai and a good book

-RAIN! it is an el nino this year, so it is supposed to rain a lot more! yippee!

Haunting

2009-08-24T23:17:00.000-07:00

Creepiest Thing of My life

Ouch

2009-08-23T17:53:00.000-07:00

My heart hurts so bad right now, I cannot explain how much it hurts to have our fellowship broken. I miss my girls so much. Lord, flood my soul, Jesus only you can fill the emptiness in my soul.

There is a Light that never goes out

2009-08-16T19:06:00.001-07:00

I hate goodbyes and this whole month is full of way too many.

I am not gonna lie, I am scared to go to college, I am scared of having to meet new people because tobe honest I love my friends, they are the most amazing people, and I was perfectly content with them, I really don't want to meet new people and be "social" and go through all these shallow friendships of "where are you from?, what's your major?, okay lets hang out cause we both don't have anyone else to hang out with" Maybe I am being negative, but I think I am just being honest. I don't want to just put on a happy face and say "yay! I want to meet new people!" When really I am just missing my old friends the whole time.

Good thing I have got a month before I move out because God really does need to do a work within me, this isn't something I can just muster up the strength, like digging down deep to find some positivity beneath the sadness and lonliness, no, this must be God working through me. That is something I have been learning lately...that people say it has to be God living through you, yet you still feel this expectation and pressure to be this certain way and if only you could dig deep inside yourself and find that nice lovely Julie that really does actually care about people. But the deeper I dig, the more I see how much of a dirty little sinner I am and how much no matter how hard I try I cannot do this at all.

I have to give my heart to God and He will do his work...I hope it involves a hammer because boy do I need to be broken. I need to realize that I am nothing, that I can't be strong enough, smart enough, clever enough, or anything for that matter without Jesus Christ. Oh how the world would love to tell me differently "You gotta be strong Julie, just work a little harder and then you can achieve your goals, reach for the stars" ha! reach for the stars my butt! Sorry but all those inspirational posters that we all grow up looking at on classroom walls are all crap, they are all lies. We are failures, and we can't fix it; it seems depressing but it is the truth and I don't know where people get this idea that the truth is something that will give us a warm fuzzy feeling inside. The only One who can fix us, emphasis on the ONLY ONE, is Jesus Christ, his blood washes us clean, he puts together the broken pieces.

This gives me so much hope, I am amazed that God would even want to put me back together! God wants us to live, not to die, he doesn't want to punish us, but he does what he has to do to give us life because he will do whatever it takes to give us life. Oh such hope, for there is a light that never goes out.

Dorm goodness

2009-08-09T18:22:00.000-07:00

So I found all these articles on apartment therapy about dorm rooms and how they don't have to be bland and boring, this one especially inspired me. I just got so excited today about a new space that I can decorate, even if it is a limited amount of space that might not be all my own. Dorms are small, you can't paint them, you can't hang heavy objects, the space might not even be all my own, and I don't even know about furniture and if you can bring your own or not...but despite all that I don't know, I have a few things I am excited about...

an old-fashioned alarm clock
lighting in dorms suck, so I found these beautiful patterned stringed lanterns for 20 bucks via martha stewart! I am so excited about these!
Hooks to hang things

I ordered this quilt from urban outfitters yesterday, i'm thinking brown sheets

this is the lamp I want. Its not your traditional college desk lamp, but who needs traditional. I found this at bed bath and beyond but it is way to0 expensive...so I have some serious thrifting to do,
I also have a wall art project that involves canvas and pretty paper from the most amazing store of goodness called Paper Sky. Its in SLO and I went in there yesterday and had to leave quickly, it is like a candy store for your eyes

New Albums...

2009-08-08T19:54:00.001-07:00

Costa Rica

2009-08-07T17:13:00.001-07:00

words cannot describe, I can't think of a better way to wrap up my high school experience. Now the people I love dearly slowly start moving away, I start working and then soon I myself start college. God is so good to us, it is such a simple statement but it is so amazing that God is good.

I might write a more detailed blog later with more pictures but I might not...who knows

Oh and by the way...

2009-07-25T22:49:00.000-07:00

Tahoe was grrrrrrreat!

oh and I leave tomorrow for Costa Rice for a week and a half. I dont know if anyone reads this, but if you do...pray to the Lord for safety, good attitudes, the hearts of the Bri Bri people, unity, good health, and for God to put a fire in my bones that I cannot contain. Pray for passion for our team and that we will trust in the Holy Spirit.

College Life...

2009-07-25T15:24:00.000-07:00

2 more months...stupid quarter system

All Grown Up, I know...pathetic

2009-07-17T14:11:00.000-07:00

So I loved the sixth harry potter movie, best one yet, soo good!! While I was waiting in line for the midnight premiere (know loser=me, but whatev) I was reading a magazine article about the trio, harry, ron, and hermione. Now when I read books, I read books. I get really into the characters and almost feel apart of the group. Like when I read the seventh book I felt like I had an "in" with fictional characters because I knew about the horcruxes and no one else did besides Ron, Hermione, and Harry. So reading the article I saw there picture and they are all grown up and it made me sad.

They are so small and nerdy in this picture! I love it

Now in this picture they are way too grown up, they actually look cool, which is not okay

Anywho, moving past my nostalgic childhood memories with harry potter...I am leaving for Lake Tahoe tomorrow!! A week of playing cards, reading, laying in the sun, swimming, hiking, and full blown summer relaxation...I can't wait. I get to see my cousins too, which is always great. So goodbye blog for about a week or so, maybe longer cause right after tahoe I head for Costa Rica for two weeks. (p.s. sorry for all the weird font stuff, my computer is insane...)

3:16AM, interesting

2009-07-15T03:16:00.000-07:00

sometimes I have to ask myself, what am I doing with my life?

but you see, that is the problem right there, it isn't my life, I am not my own, never was and never will be. I can only be a servant, either to the light or to the darkness. The darkness doesn't show me mercy, the darkness doesn't show me grace, it only wants to control me, make me a slave, and to kill me.

But, the light shows me mercy, the light shows me grace, the light gives me peace beyond all understanding (I think that verse can be taken to lightly sometimes because that is amazing!) The light doesn't control me by force, but out of love gives me the will to choose. When I choose the light it becomes my master, but it does not make me a slave and does not want to kill me. The light steadies my hands, lifts my chin up, wipes the tears away from my eyes, cleans up my mess for me, and calls me a child of God. The light is love and that my friends is life as we know it.

So at 3:16 I start writing, who knows why. These numbers a significant to me for two reasons: The famous verse,For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son to die for me so that I might have eternal life, and my good friend died on the date of 3:16, a friend who showed the love of Christ like no one I had ever seen.

"O precious is the flow that makes me white as snow. No other fount I know, nothing but the blood of Jesus, nothing but the blood of Jesus"

I need to be reminded of that daily because for some reason I run into he darkness, the darkness that only wants to kill me. Why, why do I do that? I am such a stupid sheep that has gone astray. I am a mess that cannot seem to be cleaned up. I am covered in my mess before the God of the Universe and when I gaze upon his face, I see power, but I see so much love, so much grace. He whispers "I know child" and he starts to clean me up. He starts to get dirty doing it too, he puts all the mess on himself, he limits himself in love so I can stand pure and blameless in front of Him.

The rational thought it me runs out..."Why, why would you do this for me God, why do you love me, I don't understand this at all." And this is where I have been at for years now, just not understanding, trying to figure it out, asking why do you love me. This has kept me from truly fulfilling what God has in store for us. In doing this, I haven't really loved others at all and I haven't been able to accept love from others either. I am just so caught up wondering why God loves me, trying to figure it out and somehow convince myself that God actually really loves me because to be honest sometimes, no, most of the time I expect that he doesn't.

I am helpless at this point, I have come up empty and I have come up dry with nothing but mere confusion. I cannot understand it, there really is no logical explanation for it. The answer is that God isn't like me, thank God (haha) God just loves and because of this broken world I can't seem to grasp what that means, but i know that that is okay. All I can do now is love to others like he has loved me, with reckless abandon, with passion and grace.

"All of us must die eventually. Our lives are like water spilled on the ground, which cannot be gathered up again. But God does not just sweep life away. Instead, he devises ways to bring us back when we have been separated from him" 2 Samuel 14:14

"So amazing that he sent his only son, so amazing that the battle has been won. I will spend my whole life trying to understand this love."

I must pursue God, just as he has pursued me

Well...

2009-07-11T23:49:00.000-07:00

Its so not about me, and life is so much harder when I try to make it all about me, its like beating yourself bloody going against everything that God has planned. Humility, true humility, is such a relief. Praise the Lord, he is God!

Happy Fourth

2009-07-04T17:19:00.000-07:00

I love that cake, we make it every year

I leave for hume tomorrow, so goodbye blog for about a week

She & Him

2009-07-03T15:40:00.000-07:00

So lately I have been listening to some oldies stuff (like Frankie Valli, some jazz, and motown) I started to think, why don't people make music like this anymore, its so good, and then I found She & Him. I had found them actually about a year ago and only bought a few of there songs but then while surfing the web I came across an article on Zooey Deschanel, she was the girl in Yes Man and the girl in Elf, I then found out that she is the singer in She & Him. Her songs remind me of songs like My boyfriends back, your cheatin heart, It's my party, they are so good.

Dance

2009-07-02T16:02:00.000-07:00

I used to be a dancer, but I quit, it really wasn't for me but I still love to watch it

Friends

2009-07-01T10:20:00.000-07:00

one of a kind. I am proud to say these people are my friends.

Life lately...

2009-06-27T17:56:00.001-07:00

Well for starters...today I saw My Sisters Keeper, and I would advise anyone not to see it. I didn't like it. First of all it was too close to home for me and second way to many scenes of depressing slow motioness with a sad song playing in the background. The main reason I didn't like this movie was because I love the book by Jodi Picoult and the ending is the part that makes the book but the ending in the movie is so not what happens in the book. I don't know, it was just sad...there was no happiness in the film whatsoever...just not my thing...

So change of topic...Michael Jackson, has anyone been on iTunes lately? the top song. albums, and music videos are all of him... I think he is going to become very popular again, kinda like Bob Marley, I guess.

So, I am reading the whole bible this summer and I am currently hanging with the Isrealites, Samuel, Saul, and David...its all very interesting. I will read a story and be like "dang, God is pretty harsh" but then again, he is God. I have been forgetting that my whole life...and yes, he is harsh but not cruel, and oh how he loves He rescues His people so many time, its amazing

When God says things like "Don't worship other gods or things of this world, you must be set apart, for I am the Lord you God" it makes me feel sad. You can feel the hurt that God is feeling, God is saying "I created you, I love you, I am your father and friend, I brought you out of Egypt and have blessed you all and yet you still can't understand how much I want a relationship with you" and then to top it all off, Isreal says well you know what God you aren't a good enough king so we want another one, talk about heartbreak. I would have thrown in the towel back when the Isrealites started complaining about no food, yet God still sends Christ to save us after all that...oh how he loves us...God only knows why.
I am going to hume in a week, excited to get out of this town and to be a counselor for the first time rather than a camper, it will be different but I think it will be super fun still. Can't wait to read by lake and watch the sunrise in the morning with my God, my glorious, wonderful God.

Color...

2009-06-22T15:32:00.000-07:00

I have been in organization mood today...so I put my bookshelf in color order...

(Sorry for the bluriness, my camera kinda sucks)

Music

2009-06-17T16:42:00.000-07:00

If you want a good album buy this

and this... Two completely different sounds, but I like mixing things up

Doubting Thomas

2009-06-13T19:32:00.000-07:00

What will be left when I've drawn my last breath,

Besides the folks I've met

and the folks who know me

,Will I discover a soul saving love,

Or just the dirt above and below me,

I'm a doubting thomas,I took a promise,

But I do not feel safe,Oh me of little faith,

Sometimes I pray for a slap in the face,

Then I beg to be spared 'cause I'm a coward,

If there's a master of death I'll bet he's holding his breath,

As I show the blind and tell the deaf about his power,

I'm a doubting thomas,I can't keep my promises,'

Cause i don't know what's safe,

oh me of little faith

Can I be used to help others find truth,

When I'm scared I'll find proof that its a lie,

Can I be lead down a trail dropping bread crumbs,

That prove I'm not ready to die,

Please give me time to decipher the signs,

Please forgive me for time that I've wasted,I

'm a doubting thomas,I'll take your promise,

Though I know nothin's safe,Oh me of little faith

"Doubting Thomas," Nickel Creek

This song is sadly so me right now...

Since its summer...I am pulling out my bluegrass collection which isn't much but I like what I got

-Nickel Creek, Crooked Still, Abigail Washburn, Allison Kraus, Old Crow Medicine Show, anf The Wailin Jennys

Complete

2009-06-08T16:07:00.000-07:00

Today was my last day of High School, I turned in my check out slip got into my car, rolled the windows and put on some taylor swift ( I thought it was appropriate.) I looked over the baseball field, gym, and stadium as I drove home while taylor sang about some cheesy high school experience and I felt so young. At checkout today I heard many different exclamations like..."We're Done!"..."I'm Free!,"..."Thank God!"..."It's all over!..." High school is over and done with, but life sure isn't. I guess I got to thinking today where does my identity lie? Now that high school isn't here and I am sorta being pushed out on my own, I don't really know whats going on. I know one thing and this is it....

"All I need to be complete is Your love Your blood, it covers me."-JJ Heller
so I am complete! It is finished! I am free! It is over! I am made righteous through the blood of Jesus Christ, death has lost its sting! I am loved and complete!

I wonder how differently I would live if I believed that there was nothing wrong with me, that I am complete in Christ, he looks at me and counts me as pure and blameless and that is all that really matters

Nerd Alert

2009-06-02T21:49:00.000-07:00

Oh harry potter, I forgot how much I loved thee...you are like junior high in a box for me... this movie looks so good, I started crying just by watching the trailer, oh my gosh it is going to be so good!

Hold on Tight

2009-05-31T22:15:00.001-07:00

Haven't bloged (or is it blogged?) in a while...I graduate in a week and a half and I am done with high school in a week...woo hoo????

you see, all year and even all of my junior year I wanted to be out so bad, to graduate and go to college, but now with only a week left I feel like my whole life is falling apart and everything is slipping through my fingers (well maybe not that dramatic but...)

I guess I am at this crossroad where I don't know whats going on or where I am supposed to go or what I am supposed to do when I get there...I guess all I can do is hold on tight...

and something completely off topic...

I thought this was a stunning photograph

Can this be me please?

2009-05-14T11:05:00.001-07:00

I am going to go to Austria and then find a mountain and sing on top of it
oh how I am a sucker for old musicals...

I am such a mess

2009-05-14T10:53:00.000-07:00

I need to be reminded of who I was

When I took my first steps out the door

All I said now follows me around

I'm reminded I'm not like that anymore

I uprooted and miles behind me

Are the faces and the home I love

You've brought to my attention

I'm slowly changing and becoming

What I wanted to stop

Isn't that just like a finite mind

Setting out with such righteous indignation

But now I'm at your feet

Could you look at me with some imagination

The bush before me, I slip my sandals off

I only stopped to look

In the depths of the sea, in the midst of a great storm

I run, I run from you

So remind me why you woke me up

And why you wake me every morn

The staff in my hand

Held in by your love

Just stay close, stay close

Because I know my own mind

I set out with righteous indignation

But when I'm at your feet

Please look at me with some imagination

With some imagination

-Imagination, Bethany Dillon

Sometimes I don't understand why God wants to deal with me, I know he loves me, but why, why me, i don't deserve it...and I am such a mess, a complicated, emotional mess. All I can say is that I need Jesus, I need him to hold me for it is good to be held by my Father. I need him to stay close, just stay close Lord.

I suggest...

2009-05-08T22:49:00.001-07:00

You buy this album and listen to it, it is amazing

Enter the Worship Circle, Chair and Microphone Vol. 3

You Tell Me...please

2009-05-01T19:20:00.000-07:00

I ain't got a clue...I don't know how to do this, I just don't get it...but maybe it is supposed to be that way, so yes, please, you tell me...

"There's some things we don't talk about
Rather do without, and just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of, together all the while
You can never say never
Why we dont know when
Time and time again
Younger now than we were before
Don't let me go"
-Never Say Never, The Fray

What I have been up to...

2009-04-22T13:56:00.000-07:00

Hiking more...

Camping...Riding my new bike on new beautiful backroads...

turning 18

getting my ears pierced

trying to be patient until graduation...7 more weeks!

Jesus Art

2009-04-21T22:19:00.001-07:00

I found these thanks to my friend Emily, she found them online and I really like them!

Happy Easter

2009-04-12T09:35:00.000-07:00

Sorry, no happy bunnies, bright eggs, or spring flowers, just the Son of God carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders so that you and I may have life.
He has made all things new, he has felt it all, and of course...He is alive, he lives in you and me
Now lets pick up our cross and follow him

17 going on 18

2009-04-06T15:59:00.001-07:00

It has been a while, hasn't it blog?
Things have happened, but I am not going to get into it.

I am turning 18 tomorrow and when you turn eighteen it really gets you thinking...
Thinking about how when I go away to college I will rarely have those moments where I lie in bed in my room at 6:30 in the evening when the sun hits my window just right and I lie there and just think and stare at the ceiling.
I can ride a bike without a helmet now, well without getting in trouble by the cops
Hold the puppies at the pet store
smoke...but I think I will pass
buy something off an infomercial
buy nyquill and puff paint (two very important things)
I think about how when I was little I wanted to be eighteen so bad because whenever I saw infomercials it said you had to be 18 or older to call, so I couldn't wait till I was 18; I always wanted to be older when I was younger. I even made "r" by favorite letter of the alphabet because it was the 18th letter. Now, on the eve of my 18th birthday, I want to be eight again; I don't want to call myself an adult, I want to have the joyful spirit I had when I had crazy afro hair and dressed like a tomboy.
I don't want to live a stupid life, I don't want to just go to college and then get married and live a comfortable life. I don't want to be like grown ups, I want to always have the desire to roll down the windows and blast the music as loud as it goes and to pull off the side of the road when I see a beautiful field and then go run through it. I want to help you, I want to lend you a hand, even take a bullet for you.

I want to live dangerously for Him, always, loving with reckless abandon.

Spring Photography

2009-03-14T16:54:00.000-07:00

My favorite combination is...blossoms+green hills+blue sky+some white clouds

I'm Standing on the Edge of Me

2009-03-04T22:32:00.000-08:00

"Cause everything inside looks like everything I hate, You are the hope I have for change, You are the only chance I'll take" -Switchfoot, "On Fire"

you know things are not right when you question heaven and whether you have a place there or not. All I can say is, so long self...

Just Thinking...

2009-02-17T20:11:00.000-08:00

-Leviticus...I was doing so good with the Old Testament until I got here, I have been on chapter 12 for about a week now...so far all I have learned is to be so thankful for Jesus Christ, because of him my pastor doesn't have to do some crazy specific sacrifice everytime he sins and I don't have to be shunned while I am on that "time of the month" and go through some week-long cleaning ceremony. Yes Jesus, thank you so much for the cross.

-Rain, it has been raining a lot and I love it! The weather is reflecting my soul...rain brings forth green hills and wild flowers just like hard times bring forth the fruits of the spirit.

-Music, I forgot about artists like John Mayer, Nickel Creek, and Patty Griffin. I have really been thinking about pursueing music lately because I just find so much joy in leading worship and if that could be my career, oh man that would be awesome, but who knows what God has in store, I am up for anything Lord.

-Heaven, we should all think about it more, it makes everything in this life less...not less difficult...but it just gives me hope, yes hope! Not in the "Obama is going to save the economy hope" or the "I am going to find a happy ending on this earth with a nice retirement and a easy death hope" but more like a "I am not of this world and I am a citizen of heaven so nothing else on this earth should matter but spreading the Gospel and I will do whatever it takes no matter how much persecution it will cost because at the end of all things Jesus is coming again and I will dance with him forever and ever and ever... kind of hope"

The winter is almost over, the hills are green and blossoms are starting to show, it reminds me of in The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe, the long winter of 100 years is almost over, The White Witch will soon be defeated and Aslan will restore Narnia to a peaceful and joyful land.

"When Aslan bears his teeth winter will meets its death. When Aslan shakes his mane we shall have spring again ." -Prince Caspian (the movie), C.S. Lewis

College

2009-02-17T17:09:00.000-08:00

I am going to school here...it is so beautiful I almost want to cry, I am truly blessed! Go Cal Poly SLO!

Snow and Blossoms?...

2009-02-13T15:14:00.000-08:00

All within a week, California sure is weird...

To Do...

2009-02-09T14:23:00.000-08:00

-Go to Yosemite

-Find an amazing field full of wildflowers

-Hike Bishops Peak

-Hike Valencia

-Learn to crochet hats and improve at crocheting scarfs

-Hike Madonna

-Basically try and hike as much as possible

-Drive highway 1 all the way to Big Sur

-get a job...

-backroad

-finish reading the Old Testament

-read Mere Christianity

-invest in other people more than myself

-jump in the ocean when I was not planning on it

-get my ears pierced

-star gaze

-enjoy working out more...so then I will work out more...

-eat fruit, like all the time

-sunbathe

-to try and not fear, for if the Lord is with me then who can be against me?

-soak up The Word, like all the time

-learn more about God

-love love love, joy joy joy, all the time!

...hopefully I can accomplish all this before college...

(picture source...http://xstandingintherainx.deviantart.com/art/joy-84788058)

...oh and if it is in bold it means i have accomplished the to do item!

24

2009-02-08T19:02:00.000-08:00

"Life is not what I thought it was Twenty four hours ago Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You And I'm not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You" -Swichfoot, Twenty-Four

it's funny how things change just like that, but the Lord is already starting to do a work within me.

Stuck

2009-02-06T17:09:00.000-08:00

-Crazy Love is killing me.
-Exodus is killing me.
-everything is killing me, but seriously, I need to be killed.

I am learning so much but it is all going over my head, or maybe into my head but not into my heart. I have been realizing how much God wants our heart lately:
"I want you to show love, not offer sacrifices. I want you to know me more than I want burnt offerings" ~Hosea 6:6

"The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit. You will not reject a broken and repentent heart, O God." ~Psalm 50:17

I need to let go, remembering that He will not let go. I write all this, yet I still am not changing. God change me, I'll do whatever it takes Lord, just change me. I am stuck in a room, I am pushing on the door, but won't open...I'm stuck, God, get me out, deliver me!

"O God, I have tasted Thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more. I am painfully conscious of my need of further grace. I am ashamed of my lack of desire. O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee; I long to be filled with longing; I thirst to be made more thirsty still. Show me Thy glory, I pray Thee, that so I may know Thee indeed. Begin in mercy a new work of love within me. Say to my soul, `Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away.' Then give me grace to rise and follow Thee up from this misty lowland where I have wandered so long. In Jesus' name, Amen." ~A.W. Tozer

And Jesus Wept

2009-01-25T14:21:00.000-08:00

Fitting in has always been a problem whether its a pair of pants or a group of girls, I have always felt like an outcast and the thing is that it isn't even that people are exclusive or anything like that, it is more me and my heart and how I can't be myself. I am wounded from the past by words like "your suffering doesn't matter to me, you are weird, why do you like that, thats a stupid idea, maybe you should try and lose weight, etc, etc..." I have always wanted to belong somewhere and in someplace where I can be me, who I am, but I feel as if I am stranger to everyone from at home to school and even church. But oh the joy I have through all this is that I belong to Jesus Christ, I am his daughter, I find my identity in him and He loves me so much that He died for me. He knows my pain, for he experienced it on the cross, He knows how it feels to be forsaken and forgotten, to be wounded and rejected. He came and He felt it all, and Jesus Wept. So yes, I might not fit in to a size 2 pair of pants and I might not be noticed or cared about by the earth, but the Heavens know my name and they are saving a place for me there, where my love Jesus Christ awaits me.
(picture source: http://danidaeskye.deviantart.com/art/and-Jesus-wept-55754116)

Droplets on a Rainy Day

2009-01-24T13:18:00.000-08:00

Sunbathing in January

2009-01-20T10:55:00.000-08:00

As I drove down highway one from SLO to Morro Bay on saturday, I rolled down the window and felt the sun on my skin, it was 80 degrees and the hills were glistening with a hint of green. It was one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen. Then I started to ask God, how, why??? How can you give us this weather, when we turn our backs on you for worldly desires, when people reject You everday. Why do you love us? I felt so undeserving, I mean how many people can say they sunbathed in January? I am so thankful for the Lord, joy and pain, sun and rain, He never lets go.

What Do I Know of Holy?

2009-01-09T22:39:00.001-08:00

I made You promises a thousand times

I tried to hear from Heaven But I talked the whole time

I think I made You too small I never feared You at all

If You touched my face would I know You?

Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

What do I know of You, who spoke me into motion?

Where have I even stood but the shore along your ocean?

Are you fire, are you fury, are you sacred, are you beautiful?
So, what do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured out

I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about

How You were mighty to save

Those were only empty words on a page

Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be

The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?

And a God who gave life "its" name?What do I know of Holy?

Of the One who the angels praise? All creation knows Your name

On earth and heaven above, what do I know of this love?

Collages...

2009-01-07T21:34:00.001-08:00

Collages...well that whole creative ambition is being put on the backburner right now considering that I am back in school and really focusing on learning to crochet in the whole hobbie area of my life. So here are the only ones I have created in the past couple months...and yes I know "practice makes perfect..."

The Great Divorce

2009-01-03T19:37:00.000-08:00

I just finished The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis and it was so good, one of the best books I have ever read!

"Let us be frank. Our opinions were not honestly come by. We simply found ourselves in contact with a certain current of ideas and plunged into it because it seemed modern and succesful."pg.37
The purpose of this whole book is so good, that there must be a definant morality and people just come up with a bunch of rubbish to work around the absolute truth.

"Those that hate goodness are sometimes nearer than those that know nothing at all about it and think they have it already"pg. 82
ah so true! I sometimes get excited when I think of all those who are trying to prove Christianity wrong because I know they can't and that most of them will end up believing.

"Every poet and musician and artist, but for Grace, is drawn away from the love of the thing it tells, to love of the telling till, down in Deep Hell, they cannot be interested in God at all but only in what they say about him. For it doesn't stop at being interested in paint , you know. They sink lower - becoming interested in their own personalities and then in nothing but their own reputation." pg. 85
Being a musician, that is SO convicting it is not even funny.

Thoughts on Love...

"But some say in general what's been unsaid among you this many a year: that love , as mortals understand the word, isn't enough. Every natural love will rise again and love forever in this country: but none will rise again until it has been buried" pg.105

"You cannot love a fellow-creature fully till you love God." pg.100

"No natural feelings are high or low, holy or unholy, in themselves. They are all holy when God's hand is on the rein. They all go bad when they set up on their own and make themselves into false gods." pg.100

"But what we called love down there (earth) was mostly the craving to be loved" pg.125
This book has really made me rethink love and that how God is love and without him I cannot truly love others. Love is so much more, there is so much I don't know about it...

2 more....

" It must be one way or the other. Either the day must come when joy prevails and all the makers of misery are no longer able to infect it: or else forever and ever the makers of misery can destroy in others the happiness they reject for themselves. I know it has a grand sound to say ye'll accept no salvation which leaves one creature in the dark. But watch that sophistry or ye'll make a Dog in a Manger the tyrant of the universe." pg.136

"Every disease that submits to a cure shall be cured: but we will not call blue yellow to please those who insist on still having jaundice, nor make a midden of the world's garden for the sake of some who cannot abide the smell of roses." pg.137

ONE WAY, JESUS!

Slowly

2009-01-02T18:04:00.001-08:00

Jesus is slowly bringing me back to life, peeling away the garbage that clutters my soul"The very first tear he made was so deep that I thought it had gone right into my heart. And when he began pulling the skin off, it hurt worse than anything I've ever felt. The only thing that made me able to bear it was just the pleasure of feeling the stuff peel off." -Eustace The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, C.S. Lewis

Whats Been Going On?

2009-01-01T16:25:00.000-08:00

Well, let me answer that for you...NOTHING! nothing has been going on inside me for the past couple weeks. My desire for God is hidden under a bunch of garbage and its voice is getting smaller and smaller. No...not apathy again, I thought I just got out of this mess but I guess not. All I can say is "I don't know" because to be honest I have no clue on what to do other than trust in Jesus, he is all that I have.

"I know I need you, I need to you love you Lord.

I'd love to see you but its been so long.

I long to feel you, I feel this need for you. I need to hear you, is that so wrong?

Now you pull me near you, when were close I fear you,

still I'm afraid to tell you all that I have done.

Are you done forgiving or can you look past my pretending? I am so tired of defending what I've become. What have I become?"

(Times, Tenth Avenue North)

Rest in Peace Whiskers

2008-12-28T18:12:00.001-08:00

My cat had cancer and we had to put her to sleep yesterday, we have had her since I was born.
You will be missed whiskers!

Christmas Hope

2008-12-25T18:23:00.000-08:00

"I celebrate the day that you were born to die, so I could one day pray for you to save my life"

-Relient K

"Then pealed the bells more loud and deep:"God is not dead, nor doth he sleep;The wrong shall fail, the right prevail,With peace on earth, good will to men."

(I did not take this...here is the source http://anti-pati-ya.deviantart.com/art/star-105991877)

May your Christmas be filled with hope!

Rainy Day/Jesus is the Reason

2008-12-16T16:25:00.000-08:00

It has been raining and it has been freezing cold lately, there is talk of snow but I will not believe it ( I don't want to get my hopes up...it is just too unusual) All I have been doing lately is reading by the fireplace, not only reading but eating and studying. I practically do everything by the fireplace now. Winter is really here...I shall greet it with my muddy rain boots.Jesus is the Reason...

"O come O come Emmanuel, and ransomed captive Israel, that mourns in lonely exile here, until the Son of God appears. Rejoice Rejoice, Emmanuel has ransomed Israel."
That is one of my favorite Christmas songs in the world...He came as a baby, he could not stay away from us. He came! Rejoice Rejoice for Emmanuel has come, God with us! He came to die so that we may have life...thats what I want to keep on my mind

I Miss Summer Resting

2008-12-14T20:12:00.000-08:00

Summer= "He makes me rest in fields of green by quiet streams..."

I keep having daydreams of sitting on the lawn by Hume Lake or walking on the beach or basking in the sun on the shores of Lake Tahoe...

Narnia Craze...

2008-12-09T22:07:00.000-08:00

I have been really into Narnia lately (and for the 1st time too, which is weird cause I am 17) I just finished Voyage of the Dawn Treader and I am moving on to Horse and His Boy, I have also been watching the Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe and Prince Caspian. C.S. Lewis is an amazing writer and I am learning so much from the books. Lucy is an amazing role model of great faith, so childlike and so pure! Here are some amazing quotes:

" An evil force has entered it, waked and brought hither by the Son of Adam...But do not be cast down, evil will come of that evil, but it is still along way off, and i will see to it that the worst falls upon myself" - Asland The Magician's Nephew

"He has made himself unable to hear my voice. If I spoke to him, he would only hear growlings and roarings. Oh Adam's son, how you cleverly defend yourselves against all that might do you good" -Asland The Magicians Nephew

"Child, did I not explain to you once before that no one is ever told what would have happened"
- Asland The Voyage of the Dawn Treader

"And to realize it was only a dream; it wasn't real, is so heavenly that it was very nearly worth having the nightmare in order to have the joy of waking" - Lucy The Voyage of the Dawn Treader.

and just a good C.S. Lewis quote...
"You do not have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body."

film is fun

2008-12-08T17:42:00.000-08:00

Film picutres! Film is annoying but worth it in the end...

Love

2008-11-26T13:47:00.001-08:00

" Love is patient, love is kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never give up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance" 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

The Journey of Seasons

2008-11-26T13:20:00.000-08:00

Autumn: "If you cling to your life, you will lose it; but if you give up your life for me, you will find it" Matthew 10:39...die to yourself Winter: What we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later. For all creation is waiting eagerly for that future day when God will reveal who his children really are" Romans 8:18-19...hope and faith
Spring: Born again into a new creation
Summer: Alive in the Joy of Christ!

The winter is dreary but the Lord will let it be spring again!

What Beautiful Models!

2008-11-16T19:22:00.000-08:00

Fotografias de la playa

2008-11-12T10:45:00.000-08:00

Around My House Today

2008-11-09T16:21:00.000-08:00

My Favorite Tree (outside our dining room window)
Candles in my bedroom

Film Camera in the Kitchen:
New Target Shoes on the front Porch
Along with my cat...
Red Rose in my room
Skylight in the hallway
it has been one of those days where music is playing in the kitchen and I do not want to stop in reading in my bed. I am so thankful for my home!

Making Pies

2008-11-04T17:58:00.000-08:00

I made my first pies on Saturday and I was taught by an expert!

I can't even explain how much I love the feeling of flour on my hands and an apron around my waist. I think I want to bake more...

oh and here is a lovely picture of a tree changing color!

macro+black and white=love

2008-11-01T10:13:00.000-07:00

some new photos...

Father Daughter Pumpkin Carving

2008-10-30T20:07:00.000-07:00

My dad and I only have a few traditions together and they are this: carving pumpkins for halloween and picking out a christmas tree. We have been doing for as long as I can remember! This is year it is kinda sad because next year I might be going to Cal Poly and not be living at home anymore, so it is kinda the last year we do this together, but thats alright, I have to grow up sometime.

Before:

After:Oh, how I love my father!

Autumn Collage

2008-10-29T15:41:00.000-07:00

Michaels, oh how I love Michaels. I think when I get a job next summer I want to work there. I could spend hours upon hours in that store. Anyway...I went there yesterday and all of there Autmn things are on sale because they are starting to set up for Christmas (I know its not even halloween!) So I got some cute little autmn flower stickers. Now another new thing I have wanted to get are alphabet stamps (for collages because my handwriting is not so pretty) so I picked up some cute little ones at Michaels.

So this week has been so hectic for me and I really wanted to relax this afternoon, so I decided to make a collage. It was so relaxing! I sang to God and created something, it was so fun!I also made it so our house could seem more festive, hopefully my mom will like it.

Recent Photography

2008-10-28T20:44:00.000-07:00

I don't know why, but lately my heart has become more passionate to this whole photography thing. It might be because of my photo class at school, who knows! My camera isn't fancy or anything, so I do not think I am legit or anything. I just find is so peaceful I guess.

Hold Unto the Lord

2008-10-28T20:30:00.000-07:00

"The humble man reached in his pocket for his Sacred Book, and began to read. It was this world alone that was certain." -Cry, the Beloved Country

I can't keep trying to sum everything up and figure everything out, sometimes things just are what they are and I just need to rest in my Heavenly Father. There are some things that my mind cannot wrap around, it is in these moments when I realize how much I need to trust in the Lord with my everything. For he leads me by still waters and his goodness and mercy are following me through all of my days. He will never forsake me, his love never ends! I need to be still and know, I need to lie down in green pastures and surrender my chaos to the Creator of the entire universe.

Sunrises, Parades, and Sisters in Christ

2008-10-18T17:49:00.000-07:00

So today has been quite eventful. It started off with me waking up way too early because it was Colony Days today in the lovely small town of Atascadero and I was in the parade. So this morning I woke up to a sky look like this...it was so worth it!

So then after this lovely sunrise, I went downtown to get ready for the Colony Days Parade. I was in it for Key Club, and honestly I love all my key clubbers, they are so sweet and loving! It was super smalltownish and I loved it, and the fall trees were especially beautiful today!

Then after the parade I got to hang out with some amazing sisters in Christ! Steph and Tia are my really good friends who are currently attending Biola in the L.A. area. They came home for the weekend and brought their new college friend, kathy, who is so awesome, Her hair and personality is so kind, I love her already and we only met last night! We went to hang out in San Luis Obispo for the day!

Collages and Trees

2008-10-17T17:49:00.000-07:00

I made a collage today in inspiration of the JJ Heller song "Grow," the words seem to be applying to my life and lately I have just been marveling at how me and all my friends have grown in Christ together. It is my first collage ever so it isn't the best but hopefully my skills will improve and I keep making more.
Also this morning the light was hitting ony of my favorite trees just perfectly so I just had to take a bunch of pictures. The leaves are starting to change!

Crazy Weekend

2008-10-16T16:37:00.000-07:00

For some reason in the past month I have been falling in love with the beach. I have never been a beach person because I never go in the water and it is cold and I dont like to surf, but lately just sitting or walking or taking pictures at the beach has been so amazing. This weekend I went campin at Morro Strand in Morro Bay for my friend emily's 17th b-day. I had laready had a crazy week and I really go to do some thinking while I was there. God showed me that everyday is different, I should never focus on tomorrow. So here are some pictures I took!

Let Us Soar

2008-10-10T13:47:00.000-07:00

Life is changing, my perspective is so different now, salvation is here! Jesus you give and take away, you give and take away but my heart will choose to say Lord blessed be your name! Jesus you alone are Father and you alone are good! I will trust in your will! I know God is going to use this to make people eventually soar in his love! Jesus, help us all to jump of the ledge and soar into your beautiful wide open arms!

Welcoming Autumn with Baking!

2008-10-09T19:22:00.000-07:00

So on the eve of the autumnal equinox my mother and I made this pumpkin nut cobler thing. We haven't baked together since so long ago and it was really fun! Then a couple of my friends came over and we all ate some together, for some reason it was one of the best days I had had in a long time!

Photography through the years

2008-09-20T12:41:00.001-07:00

Friday Night Lights--Orange&Grey All The Way

2008-09-18T14:09:00.000-07:00

So I am now a senior at Atascadero High School and it is officially football season, I do not play sports or even like football, but I do enjoy watching my school team play and cheering them on form the stands. Last friday was the first home game of the season, and we lost...so sad...but they were a hard team. So here are some pictures from the game.

The Craft Room of all Craft Rooms!!!!!!

2008-09-15T21:34:00.000-07:00

So my friend/mentor/sister in christ has the most amazing craft room of all time! Her name is Heidi and she has been my mentor for about three years now and she is one of the most hospitable people I know. She has three sons, so she is always eager to have girls over. While she was out of town I fed her dogs and she let me use her craft room and it is amazing, here are a few pictures...

Bored...

2008-09-13T20:00:00.000-07:00

10 years ago I was...
seven years old and just starting the 2nd grade at Monterey Road Elementary. My Hair was a complete and utter disaster at this time in my life and I was also leaving my princess stage and becoming a tomboy.

.5 things on my "to do" list today:

well the day is pretty much over but I will say what was on my to-do list
1. Go to dennys with my dance friends at 9:00
2. Walk/Jog (mostly walk haha) around the Lake Park
3. Make mix CD's for college friends
4. Clean room and practice piano and voice exercises
5. Study the Bible

4 things I would do if I became a billionaire:

1.Buy a large home with a huge kitchen and dining room and many guest rooms. it would be like a bed and breakfast but always free for anyone in the community who needs a place to stay or talk about anything, or just a place where people can have a meal and fellowship together.
2. go meet a homeless person and buy them a house and food and adpot them as my own and provide for their needs
3. pray to the Lord that I would never become selfish or consumed by the wealth I possess
4. give money to my dad so he can actually retire someday

3 of my Bad Habits:

1. sarcasm
2. self-pity
3. being a hypocrite

Places I have Lived
1. Atascadero, CA from birth until now in the same house

Jobs I've Had:
1. Babysitter : )

Things that most people don't know about me:
1. I am starting to enjoy playing piano more than singing
2. I could do the splits all three ways at one point in my life
3. I got pulled over by a cop once because he thought I was drunk...I was not and never will be

Going Away Crafts Part 2!

2008-08-25T14:25:00.000-07:00

So I have finally finished my going away crafts for my friends who unfortunetaly are already gone away. I didn't finish them on time so I am going to mail them to them in college!

Joanna:

Stephanie:

Tia:

more later!

Hume Lake 2008

2008-08-13T15:27:00.000-07:00

My last year of summer camp and oh it was amazing! I have been going to hume since my freshman year of high school and it has really been a great place where I have found God and jut grown in him. Here are some lovely pictures of Hume this year

I had a really really fun time wtih all these girls, they are amazing! we have grown so much together over the past three years of high school and now we enter into our senir year together!!!! yippee!